Charli XCX admits to being a workaholic and having no friends outside of the music industry in a new interview with The Guardian.
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... this makes me want to give her a hug
"I’ve always said I’m a workaholic, but I never actually knew what it meant, until I was Googling it the other day. And ****ing hell.…” She recites the symptoms the search turned up: “That you don’t sleep well. That you swing between thinking of yourself as the absolute best in your field or the absolute worst, completely inadequate, a total piece of ****. That you turn every aspect of your life, people and places and fun, into work… Which is me. Like, every single thing is work for me. Every friend I have is a collaborator in some way.”
I ask how it made her feel, reading that description, and finding herself so accurately described. “Really sad. Because then it made me think, oh God, do I not…”
She pauses here: she sits back and turns her head. It’s the first and only time since she sat down that she’s seemed anything but ironclad-sure of herself. “Sorry. I feel like I’m going to cry if we go into it. But, yeah, maybe I need to not be doing that all the time. I don’t know. I feel like I don’t have anyone I can talk to about not-music stuff. Everything is music. You know?”
I suggest, cautiously, it might be healthy if she cultivated some relationships with people outside the industry. She growls a laugh and says, oh, she’s tried. Her first boyfriend was a film director.
“And I made him direct all my music videos.”
She sits forward again, visibly shaking off the bluesy feelings. She says she’s got into funks before, and a gig has normally helped drag her out again. Luckily there’s that London show due in a few hours; later there’ll be glowing reviews in the papers and online. “Sometimes you might want to die, internally. But you deal with it and go on stage. When I’m on stage I’m never thinking, like, ‘I’m really sad’. I’m just releasing all my energy.”
Couldn’t she also write some of this out of her system too? Yeah, she says, she’s been thinking about that. “I feel quite alone at the moment, more so than I’ve ever felt in my life, and that will probably affect the [next lot of] music quite a lot.”